A DIFFERENT KIND OF POST: HAPPY VETERANS DAY

DIDN'T KNOW THAT 2DAY WAS A HOLIDAY.....I WISH IT WASN'T, ITS 2 MANY PEOPLE HERE. LIKE MY MOMS & BRO.;TOO MANY!!! ANOTHER NOTE ---> EVERYDAY I WAKE UP WITH THE SAME DAMN THOUGHTS THAT REMINDS ME OF HOW UNFULFILLED MY LIFE IS! THATS WHY I'M TRYING TO MAKE A CHANGE....I'M GOING 2 ALWAYS REMEMBER MY MISTAKES BUT....."SELF-FORGIVENESS" (GET IT?) ...THE THING IS,I REALLY DO WANT TO JOIN SOME TYPE OF MILITARY, WHETHER IT BE NAVY, NATIONAL GUARD, ETC. I WANT TO DO SOMETHING! NOBODY REALLY KNOWS THIS BUT I'VE BEEN DREAMING & IMAGINING SINCE I WAS 13 ABOUT THE MILITARY. IT WAS ALWAYS THE "MARINES" THOUGH, I JUST FEEL LIKE I DON'T REALLY BELONG IN THIS SO CALLED "CIVILIAN LIFE"; IF I WOULD'VE DID EVERYTHING RIGHT THE FIRST TIME, I WOULD'VE BEEN GONE. SOME PEOPLE THINK I SHOULD, SOME THINKS ITS A BAD CALL, & OTHERS DON'T BELIEVE I WOULD. I'VE BEEN HOLDING MYSELF BACK BUT THIS IS THE CHAPTER IN MY LIFE WHERE I GO FOR IT ALL! NO LONGER WILL I BE AFRAID OF FAILURE! I HAVE TO AT LEAST TRY! THIS GOES OUT 2 MY FUTURE & 2 THE PEOPLE WHO WILL BE THERE 4 ME.......... ALSO TO MY FATHER, HAPPY VETERANS DAY TO THE VIETNAM VET! EVEN THOUGH I DON'T REALLY SEE YOU ANYMORE..... HOPEFULLY I WILL BE A VET SOMEDAY.